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Carbs, A Love Story

The other night I reunited with my own true love, and although I know it’s bad — hell, it’s flat out wrong to try to turn back time — does it help you to know that when I wandered off to the point of no return, both of my parents gazed on and my husband was at my side?

All it took was a basket of warm, flaky, buttery dinner rolls, and I was in a sensory blackout courtesy of my old bad boy flame. Seduced by the yeasty sweetness of it all, I ate most of the first basket and a generous portion of a second.

And when I finished it all, I felt sick.

I felt guilty.

And now I’m afraid there’s no going back.

Once upon a time, food was just food. Nothing spelled happiness like my mom’s spaghetti and meatball casserole, where a 350-degree oven baked the sauciness out of the Bolognese, leaving a crispy pile of melted cheese, overdone meat, and best of all, crunchy pasta. Sunday mornings were only complete when my dad came home with a brown bag full of still-warm bagels. I would kill for a greasy slice of pizza, a salty bag of Wise potato chips, a gooey hunk of homemade chocolate cake.

This was of course decades ago when we didn’t know any better. Grown-ups chain-smoked while kids bumped around in the backs of station wagons with nary a car seat or even a seat belt in sight. We rode our bikes and roamed the streets until dark, when our moms called us in for dinners of meatloaf made mainly of breadcrumbs, mashed potatoes, frozen peas, and French bread and butter.

My love affair with carbs continued well into my college years when I drank buckets of beer and ate my weight in late-night munchies. Let’s just say kale was NEVER on the menu back then.

Oh, carbs. Just thinking about my old constant companion makes me want to weep. We were so good together back in the day — just carbs,  a youthful metabolism, and me. Deep sigh.

But like any long-term relationship, one can always pinpoint the time when things started to go sour. For me, the steady diet of cheap pasta and Ramen noodles went south shortly after I graduated and got a bad “New Wave” haircut. Without the long locks to hide the rolls (both my love’s and mine), it was obvious that carbs weren’t so good for me anymore.

And so, I instinctively scaled back — well, just started seeking out the “good” side (fruits, beans, whole grains). Although I looked and felt better (as in, people were asking the less-puffy me out on dates), I still had some late night rendezvous with my old dough boy. Still young and naive, I didn’t realize that those kinds of booty calls not only lowered my self-esteem, but also resulted in an actual bigger booty.

Cut to today when it’s become a near criminal act in suburbia to openly consume mass quantities of carbs. Thought police from the Biggest Loser and beyond have called out carbs as the worst possible partner in health. (And trust me, you do NOT want to piss off Jillian Michaels. That woman will make you do an extra 1,000 push-ups and will scream in your face if you even dare to glance at a cracker.)

And so I find myself simultaneously pulling away from, yet pining away for, the “bad” carbs all the time. When I’m feeling blue, I hop on Facebook to steal a peek at my former love — my news feed is always full of pics of homemade caramel, designer cakeballs, and this time of year, mountains of Christmas cookies, latkes, and other holiday treats.

The other foods I’m forced to live with are about as unsexy as Adam Levine taking a dump. (OK, maybe that’s still sexy to you, but that’s where I draw the line.) You know it’s bad when your favorite restaurants stop using old-fashioned words like “meat,” “chicken,” or “fish,” and instead urge you to “choose a protein.” Thinking about having a smoothie? Just be sure it’s loaded with antioxidants. If it isn’t non-dairy, gluten-free, vegan, and full of soy, then you might just be committing a cardinal consumption offense.

When ordering a meal is like taking a Chem 101 final, it’s a sure sign that the Appetite Armageddon is upon us.

At least I know that I’m not alone in my pie-eyed (pun intended!) mooning for my old beau. In recent years we’ve seen the rise of the $6 cupcake, a nationwide obsession with artisanal breads, a proliferation of handcrafted beers, and an intense fetisization of lactose-coated carbs like mac ‘n cheese and grilled cheese sandwiches.

This is not just an American phenomenon, mind you. My friends from NYC’s Clinton Street Baking Company are now enjoying international success with their new restaurant in Tokyo.

The love affair with carbs knows no country, nor does it discriminate.

All of this to say is that I — we — are not alone in lovin’ carbs long and large. Does it mitigate my guilt knowing that? You betcha! I’m guessing (hoping, praying) that you are fat like me and don’t give in to the siren song of the everything-free existence, which can’t be that healthy.

Maybe it is for your body, but it sure as hell can’t be good for your soul.

So if you see me ordering a dark beer, a cheese platter with extra baguette, and a side of fries (which I really did order, just last night!) don’t judge me. I’ve seen the end of days (well, on The Walking Dead), and I can tell you that when the shit hits the giant fan, all anyone wants is a crust of bread.

And if you want to be the hit of the holiday party, consider bringing a trough of bread pudding. This recipe comes straight from my childhood and Boston’s own Rosie’s Bakery. Owner Judy Rosenberg has been making outrageous desserts long before it was fashionable.  From the pages of The All-Butter, Fresh Cream, Sugar-Packed, No-Holds Barred Baking Book (original 1991 publication date!), I bring you…

Bourbon Bread PuddingMakes 8 servings

1 cup heavy (whipping) cream
1 cup whole milk
4 large eggs
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/4 cup bourbon
1/2 cup plus 2 tablespoons sugar
1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg
1/4 teaspoon salt
3-4 croissants, cut into 1/2 inch cubes (4 cups), or 1/3 to 1/2 French baguette, split lengthwise, generously buttered, and cut into 1/2 inch cubes (4 cups) — NOTE: Judy recommends the croissants over the French bread to make it “extra special.” (Read: more likely to harden your arteries by the last bite.)

1. In a large bowl, vigorously whisk the cream, milk, eggs, vanilla, bourbon, 1/2 cup of the sugar, nutmeg, and salt until blended. Add the bread cubes and toss so it’s real soaked ‘n gooey.

2. Refrigerate the pudding for at least 2 hours, tossing the mixture with a large spoon occasionally to make sure all the bits ‘o bread (croissants) are soaked. You can pull a few pieces apart with your fingers to check.

3. Fifteen minutes before baking, preheat the oven to 350-degrees. Grease an 8-inch square baking dish with butter. Scoop the pudding into the baking dish. Sprinkle the remaining 2 tablespoons of sugar over the top of the pudding.

4. Bake the pudding on the center oven rack until the top is crisp and golden and has risen in the center, about 50 minutes.

5. Allow the pudding to cool 30 minutes before inhaling it… or as you make the delicious sauce….

Bourbon Sauce

1/2 cup sugar
2 large egg yolks
5 tablespoons bourbon
4 tablespoons unsalted butter, cut into 4 pieces

1. Pour 3/4 inch water in the bottom of a double boiler and bring it to a simmer over medium-low heat.

2. Place the sugar and egg yolks in the top of the double boiler (not yet over the simmering water) and stir vigorously with a whisk until light in color.

3. Whisk in the bourbon and place the top of the double boiler over the simmering water. Cook, whisking vigorously, until the mixture is hot and slightly thickened, 3-4 minutes.

4. Pour the mixture through a fine strainer into a small bowl, add the butter, and stir until it’s melted.

5. Serve the sauce warm over the bread pudding. If you prepare the sauce ahead of time, reheat it in a double boiler over hot water.

6. Enjoy — Bourbon Bread Pudding is like sex on a bender, with more or less guilt depending on who you are and how you roll!


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  • Reply Pixie Wespiser December 13, 2013 at 6:29 pm

    Amen sister! If I eat one more piece of kale or chicken I may yak!

    • Reply Trudi December 13, 2013 at 10:32 am

      I’ll race you to the bagels ‘n beer parlor Pix! XOXO

  • Reply Bryan Diehl December 13, 2013 at 8:08 pm

    Bread pudding is my favorite carb!

    • Reply Trudi December 14, 2013 at 8:08 am

      I think it might have multiple carbs, which makes it perfection! XO

  • Reply Elizabeth Buffy Wright-Drier December 14, 2013 at 7:01 am

    Carbs, A love Story… just add a bottle of Malbec and you have a nice dirty, sexy, orgy!!!! Just the way i like it:)

    • Reply Trudi December 14, 2013 at 8:07 am

      Now you’re talking! Mal-carb-orama! XO

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